A journey of transition to triumph; Laverne Cox shares her story to TU

By: Bailey Hendricks

When Laverne Cox was in the third grade, she went to Six Flags on a church trip, where she had a “very little bit” of spending money.

“The moment I walked into the crowded gift shop, there it was,” Cox said. “Hanging there. A handheld fan. It had peacocks on it. It was fabulous. The moment I saw this handheld fan, I knew I had to have it.”

A few weeks prior, Cox had watched “Gone with the Wind.” Sitting in third-grade in true Scarlett O’Hara fashion, Cox was spinning around, fanning herself off.

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Cox’s third-grade teacher, Ms. Ridgeway, said “Come here. And bring that thing with you.”

Ms. Ridgeway marched Cox down to Ms. Farely’s classroom, a fifth-grade teacher in Cox’s elementary school.

“Show her what you were doing with that thing. Okay. Stop. Now go back to class,” Ms. Ridgeway said to Cox.

Cox’s mother received a call following this incident.

Cox said she remembers sitting in the therapist’s office, and the therapist asked her if she knew what the difference was between a boy and a girl.

“And in my infinite wisdom as a third-grader, (because third-graders are so wise, right?), I said ‘there is no difference.’”

The way Cox reasoned this response in her mind at the time, was because everyone was telling her she was a boy.

“But I knew I was a girl. I knew in my heart and my soul and my spirit that I was a girl. So, I reasoned that there must not be any difference.”

Cox started to go to therapy, and although she assumed her mother wouldn’t know what she told the therapist, she did. Cox didn’t have doctor-patient privilege as a third grader.

When Cox’s mother found out what Cox was saying to the therapist, she would yell at Cox and tell her she was a boy and she couldn’t act that way.

“It was another moment in my childhood where I was deeply shamed for something that felt really natural for me. When I look back, there’s something kind of adorable about a third-grader wanting to fan themselves like Scarlett O’Hara, right?”

After a few more sessions, her therapist suggested she get injected with testosterone to make her more masculine.

Cox’s mother didn’t feel right about injecting her third grader with testosterone and took her out of therapy.

“So, the therapy was discontinued, but the damage was done,” said Cox.

In sixth grade, Cox started to go through puberty. She described it as a “confusing and tricky” time for her.

“I remember going to bed every night and praying to God ‘please don’t let me wake up and turn me into a man,’” she said. “The idea of that was horrifying to me.”

But Cox went through puberty and realized she was attracted to boys and felt shame since it was a sin in the church. Also, in sixth grade Cox’s grandmother passed away.

“When she passed away, it was a very difficult time for me and my family. She was an incredible woman. She raised 10 kids basically by herself.”

One night when Cox was grieving her grandmother’s loss, she laid in bed and couldn’t sleep. As she laid there, she imagined her grandmother was looking down on her. She imagined her grandmother knew every, single thought she was having, including the thoughts she was having about boys.

“And in my mind, she was extremely disappointed in me having those thoughts. I had learned in church that even the thought is a sin. And so, the idea of disappointing her made me not want to live. So, I went to our medicine cabinet, took an entire bottle of pills, and swallowed them. I went to sleep hoping not to wake up.”

When Cox woke up and survived, she promised herself she would suppress her feelings about boys to make her mother and grandmother proud.

40 percent of transgender people report having attempted suicide, compared to 3 percent of the rest of the population, Cox shared.

In her efforts to suppress her gender and sexuality in middle school, Cox stayed busy and became an over-achiever. She was a straight-A student, member of the National Junior Honor Society, public speaking champion in eighth grade county-wide, and vice president of the student council.

“[Becoming vice president of the student council] still, to this day, is pretty remarkable because the student body voted for me and if you recall, they didn’t like me. They bullied me, they made fun of me.”

Cox decided she wanted to go to the Alabama School of Fine Arts. She loved to dance, but her mother didn’t let her take ballet growing up, and the Alabama School of Fine Arts only offered ballet in their dance program. She knew she also needed a scholarship.

So, Cox got a scholarship through creative writing and later switched her major to dance.

While at ASFA, Cox started being able to express herself more by customizing her own clothes she would find at Goodwill and The Salvation Army, and she started wearing makeup.

“I remember I had this pair of polyester leopard print bell-bottoms. They were so cute, they pooled on the floor behind me as I walked down the hallway in the Alabama School of Fine Arts. They were quite the hit in homeroom.”

When she graduated ASFA, Cox went to Indiana University for two years with a dance and academic scholarship. She then transferred to Marymount Manhattan College in New York City.

During her time in New York City, Cox began to learn more about her sexuality and gender.

“I continued to be a pretty good student at Marymount, but my education really happened in the nightclub scene of New York City.”

When Cox would go to the huge nightclubs in New York City in the 90s, there would be a line around the corner, and often people didn’t get in at all. Often you got to go in based on how you looked, according to Cox.

Cox would go to the front of the line and never had to wait, pay to get in, and would often get free drinks even though she didn’t drink at the time.

“It was the first time in my life that my gender expression was looked upon as something that was valuable, that meant I should cut to the front of the line. And it was an amazing, incredible time for me. And some of the people that I would meet in the nightclub scene would change my life.”

Cox became friends with Tina Sparkles, who she met in the city’s nightclub scene. When Cox first met Sparkles, she noticed the acne on her skin, but also said she was “one of the sweetest queens you would meet.”

“Over the next several years of knowing Tina Sparkles, I watched her transform. I watched her transition from a statuesque pain to a beautiful, elegant, sophisticated woman – with flawless skin, thank you very much. Flawless…. I remember saying to myself, ‘If Tina can do this, what can I do?’”

Cox said if it weren’t for Tina Sparkles and all of the transgender women she met in the nightclub scene of New York City, she might not have ended up going to get her first hormone shot to start her medical transition.

“I just got to a point where I was sick of lying to myself. I was sick of not being in the truth. I think we all get to a point in our lives where we can no longer lie to ourselves, so we have stand in our truths and begin to manifest that truth outwardly. I hope all of you are in that space now today, where you can live in your truth. And if you’re not there yet, you’ll get there. It’s a process, it’s a search.”

Cox reminded the crowd that not all transgender people are as celebrated as Cox was this night by the audience by citing some statistics.

“According to the National Coalition of Anti-Violence Programs, the homicide rating in the LGBT community, its highest amongst trans women, mostly trans women of color.”

“In 2017, we saw more reported homicides of transgender people than we ever have since we’ve been tracking the murders of trans folks.”

“According to the latest U.S. transgender survey, the unemployment rate in the transgender community is three times the national average. And four times the national average for trans people of color.”

“According to that same survey, 54 percent of all transgender people have reported experiencing sexual assault.”

“If you are a transgender person in this country, far too often you are under attack,” she said.

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She talked about the harassment she would receive on the streets of Manhattan and the subway from people who could tell she was trans. She even discussed an incident when men were yelling anti-gay and anti-trans slurs at her and kicked her.

“It has taken me many years to internalize that if someone can look at me and tell that I’m trans, that’s not just okay, that’s beautiful. Because trans is beautiful.”

About eight months into Cox’s medical transition, she called her mother to tell her.

“It was really difficult for my mother for many years, she had difficulty with the right pronouns. Now, pronouns are important and pronouns matter when we talk with and about transgender people. Pronouns matter.”

Cox feels proud now though, that her mother does use Cox’s preferred pronouns.

“I’m proud to report now that if someone uses the wrong pronoun to refer to me in front of my mother, she now corrects them…. But that hasn’t always been the case. It took us a really long time to get there. It took years of me sending her books, articles, videos to educate her, us having really difficult conversations across difference, having arguments, me insisting that if I’m going to be in her life that she has to use the right pronoun, she has to use the right name.”

After Cox’s medical transition, she booked Orange Is the New Black, even though she was considering not doing it and just going to grad school.

“I almost gave up before I booked Orange [Is the New Black],” said Cox. “I was going to go back to grad school. I was going to go to grad school and do something else, and then I got the audition and God had another plan.”

After conquering (and continuing to conquer) setbacks and judgement, Cox became the first out trans person to be featured on the covers of Time Magazine and Cosmopolitan magazine and the first openly-trans person to be nominated for an Emmy award in an acting category twice. She also holds two Screen Actors Guild Awards for her role in Orange Is the New Black.

She is also the first transgender person to win a daytime Emmy for producing in her documentary “Laverne Cox Presents: The T-Word” about transgender youth in America. The documentary features two Towson alumni, Shane Henise and Jess Liberatore, who Cox met when she spoke at Towson four years ago.

Associate Vice President of the Center for Student Diversity Santiago Solis presented the audience with a call of action before introducing senior psychology major who has served as vice president of In the Life and a Pride Mentor C’Erra Murray who would later introduce the much-anticipated Laverne Cox.

“As global citizens, I urge you to consider: what is your personal role and responsibility in creating a more just society?” Solis asked the audience. “While many of you are allies, I would encourage you to become accomplices. Yes, you can retweet, and re-share, but also consider that you can always do more. An ally can engage in activism and solidarity with a marginalized individual, or group. An accomplice will focus on dismantling oppressive structures.”

Murray spoke about her own challenges being a part of the LGBTQ+ community as a black female and acknowledged Cox for being an inspiration to her.

“Growing up, I used to want to be an actress,” Murray said. “Theatre was my passion. But as I got older and started to see the people who were on TV, I realized there was no one like me. No one was openly queer. Or played openly queer roles. We didn’t see black trans women. Or trans people at all unless they played the stereotypical roles. Thanks to Laverne Cox, I now I have someone to look up to. Though she’s trans and I’m not, she still shows me how to be a strong black woman in this community.”

“Hearing C’erra talk earlier when she introduced me brought tears to my eyes backstage. It’s very humbling and it’s a great and awesome responsibility,” Cox said. “It’s just a lot of gratitude that imperfect me can inspire somebody to be more themselves and to pursue their dreams.”

The stands of the SECU arena were packed. The upper deck of the arena even had to start getting filled. SGA members passed out pride flags before the event started. The crowd was buzzing with excitement to see Cox at Towson University.

The stands were filled with a range of people. From familiar faces of the president’s council including President Kim Schatzel herself, Vice President for Student Affairs Deb Moriarty, Vice President for Inclusion and Institutional Equity Leah Cox to students from other universities who came to hear Cox’s speech.

Bridget Lenord, a junior at Mount St. Mary’s University, traveled over an hour from Emmitsburg to Towson with a group of other peers to hear Cox speak.

“I loved every moment of it,” Lenord said. “Because, well, she means a lot to me because I’m part of the LGBT community too. And just seeing such an inspirational and powerful woman on that stage saying those things really inspired me.

Before Cox’s introduction, members from LGBTQ+ student groups on campus also greeted the audience and told the audience what their student groups were all about and when and where they meet.

Students from groups including In the Life, Gender Blur, the Pride Mentor Program, and the Queer Student Union, all were present.

President of Towson’s Queer Student Union Theo Rinaldi was excited that the University brought Cox to campus to speak to provide the community with some education about the LGBTQ+ community.

“I really love Laverne Cox and all her work,” Rinaldi said. “And I was really excited to see that Towson was bringing her to campus, that we were able to have her speak about her experiences with our whole campus community. And really bring some education about the queer community being a trans person of color, she’s an amazing person. She’s done so much. It’s just like, I just had to be here.”

President of Towson’s Black Student Union Josh White attended the event to support other marginalized student groups on campus in solidarity.

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“So, I came because I’m a Laverne Cox fan, but I’m also President of the Black Student Union,” White said. “So, I do want to support my other marginalized student groups…. and different identities on campus. So, [I] definitely came in solidarity, but also, Laverne is amazing, and we want to showcase diversity and inclusion on Towson’s campus. Again, Towson must be the model for diversity and inclusion and not [just a] participant in the work. So, I do want to also be a model for diversity and inclusion in that same work.”

According to president of Towson’s SGA James Mileo, the SGA wasn’t necessarily involved in the planning of Cox coming to Towson, but it was intentional to have Pride Fest week the week she came to Towson.

Pride Fest, which was from March 2 to March 15, was a collaboration between the SGA and the Center for Student Diversity on creating a lot of different programs surrounded around LGBT students, according to Mileo.

“And so, [Cox coming to campus] just fit so well, so we decided to put [Pride Fest week] this week,” Mileo said. “And so like, I came one, just because it’s a part of Pride Fest. I’m also the second openly-gay SGA president. And I think it’s extremely important to have representation in our speakers that come to campus to show that like, our trans students matter. And that there is a space for them here. And that the university acknowledges that. And gives someone who is like Laverne Cox the platform to really reach these students.”

For Cox, one of the reasons she thinks she has been so successful is because of her education, which she believes is crucial.

“I think for me, I’ve been very lucky, and there’s some privilege that I’m working on with that that allows me to be where I’m at now,” Cox said. “But, part of my privilege and luck is that I got to go to the Alabama School of Fine Arts and I got to get a really good education. So, I think part of the reason that I’m enjoying the success I’m enjoying now is because of my education…. Education I think is crucial.”

Cox also believes luck and hard work helped pave her way to success.

“And working really hard to be good at something. To be really good at what you do and be committed to whatever that processes is. I’m obsessed with being a better actor.  I’m still trying to get better. I’m still trying to get better at the craft of it. I’m obsessed with that, I have been for years. And so, being committed to being really good at something and proceeding with passion. And I got lucky and I didn’t give up. So that’s why this black trans girl from a working-class background is here. A lot of luck.”



Advocating for change in the juvenile justice system

The Office of Civic Engagement and Social Responsibility hosted a “New York Times Talk” focusing on juvenile justice reform in order to encourage Towson students and community members to be civic-minded citizens.

The event, presented by Field Organizer Katie Wall of the Baltimore city-based non-profit Community Law in Action, focused on the CLIA’s “Just Kids” campaign which works towards ending the automatic prosecution of youth as adults in Maryland.


CLIA Field Organizer Sarah Wall spoke to the Towson community about juvenile justice reform in the Union’s Loch Raven room Feb. 27.

“Our vision as an organization is to see youth as partners to adults,” Wall said. “The youth voice is really critical in influencing community change.”

Wall spoke about her concerns with the 33 offenses in Maryland that result in juveniles being automatically tried as adults, including 1st degree assault.

“We believe that young people, young people being defined as about age 14 to 24, are valued leaders of community change,” said Wall. “They are informed stakeholders who should be valued by decision-makers or legislators in most cases, and they are powerful contributors to social justice.”

Wall argued that charging juveniles as adults is “not effective.” She stated that 60 percent of youth charged as adults have cases dismissed or transferred to juvenile courts; however, the wait time for a transfer hearing could be up to a few months.

“We also know in basically every facet of our lives that young people are different from adults,” Wall said.

Wall informed the audience that the adult justice system doesn’t offer rehabilitation services and accountability, while the juvenile justice system does.

Wall said children are five times more likely to experience sexual abuse, 36 more times likely to commit suicide, and 34 percent more likely to commit crimes again in the adult justice system compared to the juvenile justice system.

“Youth have a capacity to change to a much greater extent than adults do,” Wall said.

Wall is advocating for a bill, SB 833/ HB 1550, that would not try juveniles in court as adults. Wall said her and her team at CLIA has been working to get this bill passed for a few years now. She said this year, however, they have decided to take a “more creative approach.”


CLIA Field Organizer Sarah Wall advocated for a bill that would charge juveniles in the juvenile justice system.

We are asking the law to make a distinction between three types of young people who are currently all charged in the adult system.

Wall and her team at CLIA are asking for a differentiation of young people who are not principal actors in an offense. Those who are not principle actors would start their cases in the juvenile justice system. The second distinction being asked is the distinction between actually doing the crime, attempting to do so, or conspiring to do so.

Wall is advocating that juveniles who attempt or conspire crimes be tried in the juvenile court.

The third distinction being asked in the bill is actual use versus display of a firearm versus possession of a firearm.

Wall told the audience one way to bring about change is to contact local legislators.

“People don’t realize that contacting your legislators is truly effective,” Wall said. “I heard one statistic that it only takes 10 emails or phone calls or letters for a state legislator to take another look at that bill and ask his legislative director to give him more information on it.”

Towson’s Student Government Association advocated for the juvenile justice reform bill during their Tiger Pride Day in Annapolis the day after Wall’s speech.

Wall and other members of CLIA also tabled in the University Union prior in the week to gain signatures supporting the bill they are trying to get passed to end the automatic prosecution of juveniles in the adult system and to educate them about their campaign.

SGA Director for Civic Engagement Christian Pinero noted that student leaders’ activism work provides a change.

“I met Sarah back in October, we’ve actually been facilitating this conversation for quite a few months,” Pinero said. “She’s done amazing work with what her campaign does and having her chance to come to speak to Towson students and to get petitions and get the signatures that they needed was an amazing thing. So not just the cause issue it provides but having your activism as student leaders on this campus definitely makes a change.”

Getting to know The Towerlight staff

Marcus Dieterle, Editor-in-Chief



“What I love most about being the Editor-in-Chief of The Towerlight is getting to witness the team effort that goes into putting this newspaper together. We really couldn’t do it without any of the people who are part of this newspaper. And it’s just great to see us come together every Monday morning through the late afternoon to get the news out to the Towson community. I think The Towerlight is a great way to prepare young journalists for the professional world of journalism. We may be a student-run newspaper, but we hold ourselves and our staff members to a very high standard that matches the industry standard, I believe. I’m proud of the work that we do. I love coming into work. The Towerlight makes me less of a Garfield on Mondays.”


Kerry Ingram, Associate Arts and Life Editor, “Trendy Tiger” Beauty and Fashion Columnist 



“I’d like to be a beauty and fashion editor at a fashion magazine. Beauty and fashion has always been two subjects that I’ve been interested in. But, I think being exposed to The Towerlight and getting the opportunity to edit for the Arts department is really awesome because it’s exposing me to the writing aspect of that and I’ve always looked at the more visual aspects of the industries. So, I think it would be cool because beauty and fashion is something that everyone participates in even if they don’t think they do. It’s a daily option and it’s one of the ways in which we communicate on the daily without having to say a word. So it has a lot more significance than people give it credit for. So I think combining both visual and verbal communication is really awesome.”


Mary-Ellen Davis, Assistant News Editor



“I want to be a journalist when I grow up. I like being in the know, I like writing, I like meeting new people. I think being in the know is really important. Especially with everything that’s going on, both nationally and globally. There’s just so much to know. I like meeting new people because there’s so much to learn from every single individual you meet. So, the more people you meet, the more you know, and the more aware you can be of different circumstances, behind everything. Every story has more than one side, and I love discovering all sides of a story; so that’s why I want to be a journalist.”



Spring Maryland Home and Garden Show attracts visitors and exibitors

By Bailey Hendricks

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The Maryland Home and Garden Show kicked off its spring show on March 4 by attracting a crowd of visitors and exhibitors.

In addition to the home and garden part of the show – where visitors could purchase anything from a power wash service for their house, to a new Jacuzzi, to a number of plants –  the event at the Maryland State Fairgrounds also held a craft show located in the Exhibition Hall of the fairgrounds.

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First Amendment 

Constitution of United States of America 1789 (rev. 1992), Amendment I: 

“Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof; or abridging the freedom of speech, or of the press; or the right of the people peaceably to assemble, and to petition the Government for a redress of grievances.”

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